My vision for my blog has always been honesty. I’ve always wanted to stay honest to people who read this, especially with some of the topics I cover. The last week or so has been rough. It happens. Life is not always brilliant… and right now, mine is pretty average.
Over the past few weeks, I’ve been setting up everything for my art business. My main passion in life is creating art, and though I have been wanting to make a living from it as a tattoo artist, it has recently seemed possible to maybe make a living from it as a full-time artist. If you have toured my website, you’ll notice the change; that my youtube has becoming focused on art, and that I have created an art instagram account – @chelsea.grace.art.
Setting everything up as been very time consuming to say the least, but now that it is, I can focus on drawing and painting many new artworks. So keep an eye out, as there will definitely be lots more of them.
As part of the art business, I have also set up a Patreon account. If you are unfamiliar to Patreon, it is a kind of crowd-funding site for all kinds of creators, where fans can pledge a certain amount of money per month or per creation (mine is set up for monthly), and in exchange the creators can give these fans rewards for their support. It is an amazing way to support creators, I personally support a few of my favourite artists on there, so if you are interested you should definitely check that out.
Other than art, I have pretty much been busy with my job. Over the past few weeks, I have been working for 6 days a week (I’m still doing 5), which definitely takes up a bit of time. Though I must admit, the workplace at the moment has been rough. As someone who always strives to do their best at work, it gets kind of stressful when other people just expect you to do their work as well as your own, as well as only being noticed when you make a mistake, instead of the hard work you are putting in. I get this happens in every work place, but it does get stressful, and I am kind of struggling with it.
Over the past few months, I have been doing really well mentally. I hadn’t had an anxiety attack in months, I was being really positive, and really working towards my best self. I’m trying to get into a routine with exercise, I am finally eating better (I’ve almost completely given up all animal by-products; I haven’t even bought nutella or kit-kat since the new year), and I was really doing well.
So I really don’t know what has happened recently, but I have kind of just … lost it. I feel physically drained most of the time, which is why it is nice to get lost in my drawing, I’ve had a few anxiety attacks over the past two weeks, and my mood is just generally low at the moment.
I’m still really trying to keep on top of things, but it is hard sometimes. Sometimes it all does get a bit too much. That’s why there is this update post this week instead of something else, as I really just couldn’t write, I’m flailing a little bit.
It is okay to have rough patches, that’s life, it’s how we recover that is that important thing. As much as I am having trouble with this personally, keep your chin up, you can keep going. Pick yourself back up, and go crush it!
So on a happier note, the sunshine this week bought the bumble-bees, and my house has become bumble-bee central. I honestly had trouble believing these actually existed, as they don’t in Australia, so when I arrived in NZ, they made me so happy, and they still do. So have some photos of these adorable little pom-poms with legs. And have an amazing day!