For those of you that don’t know, this year I had my laptop and many other things stolen in a home robbery, and thus have been unable to update this blog until I got a new laptop, which – thank the lord – has finally happened!
Social media sites over the past week or so have been posting about how crappy 2017 has been, and how they can’t wait for it to be over. It seems to happen every single year, that the same memes, and gifs, etc etc, come out about the year that has been and how bad it was. Whilst I don’t hate social media, I am starting to realise that the people and accounts that are creating these posts, and generating the negativity towards the year, and kind of in their own way, and why should the next year improve if they are putting out that each year is bad?
For me, I always looked towards the New Year as a time to start a fresh, starting living the life I want, set goals and start crushing them. This time last year I was pretty damn excited about 2017.
Let me start by saying, it did not start out amazing. I was pretty lonely, was hating where my life was, and every time I tried to do something to fix it, it just wouldn’t work out. By June, I had pretty much given up. I had had a shitty day at work, which was not something new to be perfectly honest, did not know what the hell I was going to do with my life, my car needed to be written off, and I was broke. I sat in my car and sobbed. Once I had finished crying, I said “If I don’t get this new job I have applied for, I’m going home’. The next morning, I woke up to a phone call offering me a new full time job.
To me this was pretty damn amazing. Usually no matter how positive I think, how much I put out into the universe for good things to happen, I never seemed to catch a break. Actually for the next couple of weeks after that phone call, I was waiting for the coin to drop, I expected the company to call and say they called the wrong person and I wasn’t actually getting the job.
Back at the start of the year, I wanted to set myself an unimaginable goal, I wanted to go somewhere new. Don’t ask me why, but when I set my goals last year I wrote “I am going to hike the Inca Trail to Machu Picchu”. This has never been huge on my list but that is what I went with. In March/April, I booked a Contiki trip to Peru.
Unfortunately, when I told my boss about the trip and asked him for more hours, he started to cut my hours even though constantly reassuring me that he would give me more. He didn’t think I could cope with full time hours (though I don’t know how he made that assumption), and he eventually stopped responded to me when I would try to contact him.
This made things really hard, my pay (which I was on minimum wage) was decreasing, and with every shift that got cut, I would panic. I would call my mum, pretty much every week, stating I was going to cancel my trip. When it came to paying flights, I started to apply for loans, which I wasn’t eligible for due to not getting enough hours at work. It was not a fun time.
Then my new job happened. Not only was I now working full time, I was on a salary for the first time in my life, I was in a job that I am actually passionate about. Do you know how nice it is, to work for a company where everyone is so understanding and friendly, and you actually enjoy going to work? Because I had honestly forgotten what that felt like. They were also totally fine with me taking the time off for my trip to Peru. And I got it paid off before the deadline!
The start of July almost acted as the start of a new year for me. Working set hours, I was able to create a routine, I started to get back into Archery, I started to meal prep, I set myself time for self care, and I really started to enjoy life again.
August was a little bit rough. I had my house and my car broken into about two weeks apart. Not only did they break in, but my laptop, hard drive, hoodie, necklaces, new jacket and many other things were stolen. Unfortunately, buying a new laptop just wasn’t in my budget, so it meant I had to put my blog and youtube on hold.
It was also becoming a little hard to draw, because I wasn’t seeing any improvement, and it was really starting to become frustrating.
Then came October.
I went to Peru, and I hiked the Inca Trail to Machu Picchu.
I accomplished a goal, that even when I set it, never actually imagined I could achieve it. I went on the most amazing trip of my life, met some awesome people from all over the world, and it gave me the biggest kick in the ass to accomplish more.
To be honest, when I got back I was so damn lost, because I’d just accomplished something I never thought I would, how the heck was I going to make a better goal for myself?
Once I started to get back into a routine of things, I set myself some new goals to smash. There was going to be no more buying to make myself feel better in the moment, I joined a gym (which I kept putting off because I was cheap and lazy), I have cut out a huge amount of sugar from my diet because I coped just fine without it in Peru and saw the change it made, (also if you know me irl, you know that I am the biggest sugar fiend and it’s just unnatural for me to not have sweets), and I started my drawing again.
It’s hard to believe that I have been back for almost three months from my trip, and I can’t tell you how much it changed my life.
I also decided to cross one more impossible goal off my list – I jumped off the Sky Tower in Auckland. Though I thought bungee jumping would be a cooler way to end the year, I couldn’t exactly head down to Queenstown during the Christmas period when I work in retail. Let me tell you, that that was one of the most scary, amazing things I have ever done. I wanted to end the year with a bang, and by god I did.
Though I didn’t cross off everything in my goals list for 2017, I am still flipping proud of what I have accomplished this year. My mental health is the best it has been in the last ten years, I did not one but two things I never thought I could actually accomplished, I traveled to the other side of the world on my own, I got a job that I love so much, and I freaking smashed out of my old ways with a wrecking ball.
2017 was amazing for me, I don’t give a damn what the memes or internet posts say about this year!
Bring on 2018! I’ve got some more goals I want to smash!
Also, I just want to say a massive thank you to my family (especially my mum because I pretty much called her most days with a new worry), Jess, Sam, Leon, and Vanisha. The first half of this year was rough, and honestly you guys helped me so much I love you all!